Breathing with my nose again, but what's the point?

I'm breathing with my nose again, but what's the point when my heart feels such agony due to the heartlessness of my beloved fans? .....it's too late for me to hook up with Jonwong? I'm too American? And even if I did, Geo thinks that he could do better than me?! Ouch!!! --- the pain! Right when I thought that Jonny could answer all of my problems, and I was supported by Sarah, he had to go and crush all of my dreams. Heartless!

And to make things worst, Jonwong and Dick conspired against me to prove that I'm wrong? What subject matter was this?!